I just need time to re-grow.

When I first saw this tree my initial thought was wow it looks a little crazy!!

When I have been at my lowest point’s with my depression I would and still always fear that I was going crazy. I hated that I didn’t feel in control of my own mind, because if I was I certainly I didn’t feel like I was.
Control is a major problem for me, loosing control or even just the fear of not being in control is one of my biggest triggers for anxiety. No one wants to be seen as crazy but in those moments it’s exactly what I felt, I felt like I had completely lost my mind an didn’t know why?

After a moment of really looking at the tree, what I actually came to realise was how extraordinarily beautiful it was, the beauty that is re-growth!
It’s not like any of the other trees surrounding it, they are already at full potential and covered in beautiful leaves.
This tree may not look like the others but it’s story will be just as great. It shows a story of struggle and hardship, but also of strength and determination. What could be more beautiful than that?
Going back to what I said at the start, at first glance, wow crazy looking tree, but actually that was the reason I was so drawn to it, because it was different, the whole reason I was so compelled to take the picture. What makes us different is what makes us great, we should all embrace our differences and our little bits of crazy because actually that’s what makes us who we are. I am exactly like the tree, because at one point I felt as though I was fully grown and then suddenly I am struck down by anxiety and depression and find myself having to re-grow and re-build myself again.
Having to re-grow shouldn’t be seen as a negative but as a huge positive, it highlights your strength, focus and determination but also the sheer impact of this will teach you many new lessons along the way, making you wiser and a lot stronger than you ever were before.

Before we stand and make judgement take a moment to really see the person and think about where there life may have taken them and how far the have come to get to this point.



Published by A Work In Progress

My name is Natalie, I am a 30 something year old wife and mum of two children and one cheeky dachshund called Winston. I am a Mental Health Blogger and aspiring motivational speaker. It was May of 2019 that I decided to set up my website A Work in Progress, to create a blog based primarily on the subject of Mental Health. I chose to call myself and my website A work in Progress because after so many years of trying to seek perfection, living with extreme Anxiety and Depression has really helped me to realise that the something I was looking for simply didn’t exist. No one is perfect nor will they ever be, we continuously evolve and grow through the different experiences we have and the hurdles we encounter, thus making perfect versions of exactly who we are at that time in our lives. The intention with my blog is to inspire other’s and help them through the tough times, whilst drawing awareness to a subject that still does not get enough attention. Over the last few years I myself have struggled with Mental Health illnesses, specifically Anxiety and Depression. I first began writing as a way of helping myself to deal with my illness. It allowed me to express how I felt in detail and in turn allowed me to process my thoughts and figure out how best to manage and deal with them. I hope to spread a little more kindness into a world that doesn’t always feel very kind. I believe it is so important to recognise the colossal impact kind words can have and remove the perception that we should aspire to be like someone else rather than be happy with who we are. I want to share my experiences with others, to show that although tough and a journey that takes time, it is possible to reach the lowest point in your life and come out the other side.

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